Plain and simple? I'm dying to go. Like, DYING!
For someone who's been a classic film fan for most of their natural born lives, I cannot believe that I've never been to one yet. I mean, what the fuck have I been doing all this time? Farting around spending money on books and trips to the UK, actually. Though I don't regret buying copious amounts of books to get stuck into and I haven't started poo-poohing my trips to London every year yet, I just wish that I had saved a little of that money I had spent for a trip to Los Angeles, California in time for one of TCM's annual film festivals.
So, what brought on this lucid pining? Only the fact that TCMFF passes went on sale last week and I was stuck sitting in front of my laptop watching my Twitter feed ignite with stupendously envy-inducing tweets from my classic film pals, telling everyone that they just landed their dream pass to the 2015 festivities. FACEPALM. Like most instances in life, I was left in the dust feeling unfulfilled and slightly grateful for the tub of Rolo ice cream we had sitting in the freezer (but then I remembered that I'm dangerously lactose intolerant so my mood got even worse).
Don't misunderstand me; I am massively happy for those who booked their passes for TCMFF 2015 and I know they're going to have a brilliant time! I've never been one of those people who boils hatred in front of a computer screen wishing everyone would just shut up about their perfect lives (and hopefully I'll never turn into an internet troll ever ever), but the fact that I felt massively upset at myself cannot be denied. I live and breathe classic film and yet, I keep screwing myself out of a chance to go to the film festival of dreams.
|TCM hosts Robert Osborne + Ben Mankiewicz|
And it's not just the actual screenings I'm upset at missing year after year, it's more the chance of meeting my classic film friends that has me the most pissed off. I've met the most incredible group of people online since I started tweeting and blogging and though we only exist to each other through a monitor or mobile device, I consider them my FRIENDS. Like, real live friends I can depend on and have full-blown conversations with. Together we laugh, we cry, we share massive amounts of information with, we #TCMParty, and we give each other opportunities that get us one step closer to achieving our dreams of becoming professional film reviewers and/or writers (Danny, I'm looking at you).
No doubt about it, I'll be missing TCMFF 2015, so here is what I've promised myself for TCMFF 2016:
- I will struggle and save as much as possible for my trip to Hollywood (no more book-buying and no trip to the UK that year, SOB!).
- I will bring my Aunt Grace with me (she's the one who introduced me to classic film way back when).
- I'll probably be so fucking excited when I actually get to the venue that I will need to bring some adult-sized diapers with me. Yes, I will be peeing. From excitement and euphoria, you understand.
- I will invest in a decent camera before stepping foot on a plane. I need to document this experience and I need to look back on photographs of me meeting people like Joel, Jeff, Raquel, Trevor, Karen, Cliff, Christina, Jessica, Will, and Pam whenever I start missing them too much and a computer monitor just won't suffice.
- Grace and I have already decided that we're going to splash out on the ultimate TCMFF pass: The Spotlight Pass. DUN DUN DUN! Go big or go home.
- I will go to as many film screenings as I possibly can and I will also keep a look-out for my future life partner amongst the TCM-obsessed masses.
- Despite my wanting to suffocate Robert Osborne with squishy hugs for an indefinite period of time, I will hold back and simply blow him a kiss. From a safe distance away, of course. If I get too close to him, I fear I may rob him of life.
- Though I loathe partying and creating a ruckus, I will party hard on this trip. No doubt.
If you've already bought your passes to TCMFF 2015 tell me about it in the comments section down below! Also, tell me what your experiences have been if you've attended TCMFF in the past - what were your favourite parts - and least favourite parts - of the trip? I know booking a hotel room is going to be tough because they sell out pretty quickly, so I'm already on the look-out for suitable accommodation. Perhaps renting an apartment or house through Airbnb would be best?